On disappointment and blog pickiness

This weekend the Pope will be canonizing the second couple to be saints together (after St. Anne and Joachim). They are Sts. Louis and Zélie Martin, parents of St. Thérèse of Lisieux. My husband got a day off this Friday and we started making plans to go to Rome. In typical fashion, I got waaaay ahead of myself. I decked out our prayer corner in Martin couple devotion (see above), tried to fax the Vatican to reserve tickets for the mass, was looking up good restaurants, was about to email a priest we know who is attending the synod...
And then the tickets were too expensive (even with my brother-in-law's girlfriend's mother who works for an airline trying to get us a discount) and we decided not to go. Bummer. Big, big bummer.

I get really into things and get consequently really disappointed if they don't happen. They are still an interesting couple though and great saints to get to know. It's so symbolic how the Pope is canonizing them right in the middle of the Synod for the family.

On the topic of general disappointment, I realized that I read fewer blogs now. I am down to regularly checking four. I used to read a Catholic mommy blog that shall remain nameless that started really bothering me and making me feel worried about my parenting. It is one of those blogs that gives copious amounts of "advice". Every post is a "how to" post and her kids are sooooo well-behaved.

This reminds me of an episode of the Jennifer Fulwiler show where the guest says the internet/social media is everyone who knows very little trying to tell everyone else what to do. I so agree.

I'm trying to be careful about giving advice now. I've stopped reading blogs that act like they have it all together and are going to enlighten you.

I have serious doubts most days about whether I am doing a good job as a mother, wife and general person. I panic when I think of what Addie could turn out to be (the negative options) and really try to leave it in God's hands. We are all broken, journeying towards the One who is all true and all good. We are all pilgrims on this windy path called life, full of disappointment, doubts and fragileness (and faith and light and good things too!).